These are just some of the questions the author tries to answer as she confronts the cancer that killed her mother in much the same way it threatens to kill her.

But this is a book of therapy as well. We follow Julie, her husband and children through their journey into fear of the unknown, through diagnosis and missed diagnosis, through successful and not-so-successful operations. We watch her reaction to those "miracle" medicines that can destroy the patient even as they help cure her disease, and we see how alternative medicines and their practitioners touch her soul while helping her in her fight to reclaim her body.

Julie Stern Joseph received her Masters' in Jewish history from NYU and has taught Jewish History and other Judaic Studies to high school students for six years in Long Island, New York. She is presently pursuing a doctorate in Jewish Educational Administration from Azrieli Graduate School of Education and Administration of Yeshiva University.